Sunday, October 30, 2011


Happy Halloween everyone, I would give just about give anything to have a bag full of Halloween candy right now, might help this incredible migraine that won't go away.  Probably not, probably would make it worse, but I would of been willing to try it out.  
It feels so good to be back at Button Bay just hanging out with William and Gladys.  But if you ask Mark about that statement, he would tell you "hanging out with William and Gladys?  What you talking about girl? You haven't left the room in almost the entire week we have been here"  The sad thing is he is right.  I just don't want to leave this room, (no exercise, or sunlight no anything)  Maybe that is why I have had a migraine since last night. I woke up in the middle of the night last night and just sat out on the veranda praying, praying to make sure that God knows that I haven't been praying out loud but to make sure he knows to listen to me, because I talk to him a zillion times a day in my head.  That even though I know I'm getting so depressed, that there is no way that I will let the devil in to my heart and head.  I prayed for strength and everything else that was bothering me, but I also Thanked him for giving me my son. All this will be worth it one day.  As far as the Embassy goes, nothing..... we have heard nothing.  Oh and Miss Denise and Anita are still her, on Tuesday it will be two weeks since there interview.  That is beyond crazy.
Stick with us friends, prayers are needed more  then ever.


Kathy R said...

I wish I had words that would magically change your circumstances. I think it is the "waiting" with no end to focus on that sucks everything out of you. We can deal with what is done, but waiting for something to be done is very difficult. It's kind of like salvation. We want to "do" something to earn or justify our salvation. The reality is that there is nothing WE can DO but wait on God. This doesn't mean inactivity. It means just what you are doing - praying, thanking Him, and totally trusting that He is control.
Remember Joseph, David, and Paul and all they endured while "waiting" on God. We've recently studied 2 Cor. And this verse came to mind.

2Cr 12:9   And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

I hope you don't mind my sharing my thoughts with you. I am so sorry for your depression, but so proud of you for being "real."
Love in Christ,

Mark,Kim Lau said...

no Kathy, like I said you mean so much to me, you always help a lot. I thank you so much.